Up late

I need to go to sleep. I can't though. A dear friend of mine lost her baby today - she was 5 months pregnant. I feel so helpless and so sad. I can't stop crying - off and on all night and I wasn't the one who went through the experience. My friend sounded so amazingly strong to me - I don't know how - I would be a wreak. I'm sure this is killing her as it would anyone though. Please if youre reading this - say a prayer for her angel baby. And if you are a parent - hug your babies tonight. Being a parent really is the greatest gift I've ever received or been able to experience. It is a true miracle and just this amazing truly amazing thing - every day these children of mine show me just how incredible they are. And it makes me say thank you god....good night.

Summer Photos

Two girls in boxhouse...

Mine is the one with dark hair!!

Things are getting better....finally

Well after a terrible few weeks there, finally things are improving. I had a rough time healing from my surgery; I had complications for a few weeks that caused a lot of pain. Not fun. We finally got Audrey to wear her glasses. I had to go and get some of those stupid wrist supports since I was waiting on our elbow restraints to get shipped. Funny thing though. She only needed to wear the wrist supports (on her elbows to keep them from bending) for about an hour and then I realized that she wasn't trying to take off the glasses. I think she quickly realized that she should wear these glasses thing. Very good good good. She is doing great with keeping them on now. I think it kinda made everyone's heart jump for joy and give a great sigh of relief. :-)

Other big changes now. Spending 6 hours or so in the hospital waiting room with your dad and grandpa taught Audrey one thing - that she was really able and ready to walk on her own. It's so nice not to carry her anymore! Now we can't keep her OUT of our showers! Every morning, she hears daddy turn on the water in the shower and she hauls butt down the hallway to the bathroom. She'll go in glasses, shoes, clothes and all too! She doesn't even try to take off the glasses in the shower. It's great for me since shortly before this walking thing, Audrey would only let me take a shower for about 90 seconds - just long enough for her to figure out where I was and come crawling into the room and crying.....Now I think I could read a book in the shower and she'd be happy! Silly girl. On a bad note, she bit her sister today. Hard - left a mark and almost drew blood. Please oh please oh pleaseeee dont let her be a bite-r! That can cause really bad problems in school - it's bad enough that she has no qualms with pushing other children down and taking their toys or food.....sometimes it just so hard as a mom to know how to handle these situations...

On a final note, I'm going to my 10 year college reunion.....what have I gotten myself into???

Audreys glasses

Just thought you might want to see them...

Not a good week.

I've been quiet. To say that the last week has been strange would be an understatement. To say that it was one of this family's worst weeks would be to give fate something to strive for....it started with the whole scare over the baby's eyes. Thank you God, but there is no tumor. At least not yet. She has some severe form of Amblyopia (known as lazy eye) where one eye is far sighted really bad and rapidly losing vision. So she has to wear glasses immediately and elbow restraints to keep the glasses on. This will not be fun. Last Monday, I began the great hunt for a pair of cute and SAFE baby glasses that fit a child the size of a 2 yro. Not easy.

During the week that I was frantically driving around town visiting 3 or 4 optic shops in a day and calling 3 or so more, I had some pains. Now if there has ever been anything wrong with your child or they've been sick, etc., you know what I'm about to say. How hard do we try to bargain with God - please God let this happen to me and not to my baby kind of bargaining. During the two weeks we had the scare with the baby's eyes, all I could think of was her needing an eye surgery. And I would sit there and say please God not her - let me me do it. Well, does God take you up on those? I think he did. Because Friday night I was at the ER getting a laporoscopic procedure done. I went in to get an IUD a week before and the practioner had inserted it THROUGH my uterus. Not into it.....I didnt even know that could happen!

So, I'm healing. Slowly. I wasn't planning on needing surgery last week, but voila! The baby has glasses on order. And I would still bargain with God to have some surgery instead of my baby. Quite frankly, the week ended on a high note since the beginning of the week we thought the baby had leukemia or a cancerous tumor in her eye....surgery isn't nowhere near as bad as that!!!