A sad day

The day before we left for CA back in June, we had an unfortunate event. Our baby kitten died. It was horribly sad for everyone, with the exception of Audrey who is probably too young to notice. Zoey cried really hard when I told her, but it was a comfort to see she had some form of comprehension of what this meant. Her school had to deal with death this year when they lost their class hamster in the first month of school. I was so mad at the school for talking to my baby about death at such a young age, but I learned throughout the year that this was a good thing. I'm glad that she is getting that foundation about God, the stories of the Bible and some beginning form of religion. I'm not ready to take them both to church regularly since I dont think Audrey will apreciate having to sit still for that long. But soon enough I would like to find this in our lives and heart. Something that I didnt have growing up was a strong relationship to church, God or any type of religion. I respect my parents for allowing me to grow up and develop my own beliefs.

However, it's been a long hard road for me. I want my girls to have less of a challenge or at least a different one than I did. My thoughts are to allow them to develop their own relationship with God, but to start that at a very young age. As in now. And with dealing with Baby Kitty's death, I see why this is a good thing. I dont know how to explain death to these two beautiful little girls. Zoey sat and watched out the window at Baby Kitty's grave - she kept telling us that she was watching for God to take her to be with him. It was hard to explain to her that she was already there. Over the weekend, she started talking about Baby Kitty. It's been almost 2 months. She started to cry and told me that she was sad. She started talking about how God had taken her kitty. It was almost like she mad/sad that God had taken her kitty away. It's such grown up feelings that I dont think I handled it well. How can you handle that or explain that to 4 yro when grown ups dont even understand this?

While we are on this grave subject, a family that is very dear to Zoey has been given the news that the father has Lymphoma. Please keep them in your prayers, thoughts or positive vibes. I certainly have been.